My advice for anyone dealing with depression is to understand it. Don’t feel more depressed about being depressed. Don’t try push it away. Let it be, accept it, but understand it. With understanding, it will dissolve.
Depression is more or less the mind’s resistance to not having things go its way. Understand why this is. Understand why the mind thinks it has control over life’s circumstances. Understanding brings peace.
I think it’s okay to be depressed. I think that’s a very reasonable response to the way we are told to view the world and ourselves. There’s nothing wrong with depression. It is a tool. Tools are only useful if you use them. So use your depression to find out who you really, truly are.
Depression is a call for you to examine your own deep seated false beliefs and ideas about the world and yourself. When you figure it out, not only will the depression be gone, but you will come out stronger and wiser. You will look upon those times with gratitude.
I went through depression that eventually turned into a fire that consumed everything that was not true. Because I was once depressed, today I am awake. I look upon those times with utmost gratitude and respect because they were blessings in disguise.
For this reason, I’m not interested in taking away your depression or distracting you from it. Instead I suggest that you take a look at it, closely. Embrace it, because it is extremely powerful. Depression is not bad. It is in a way a sort of trap placed by God, for you to fall into divinity.
If you’re too depressed to take care of yourself, why not surrender completely? I’m not talking about suicide, because that is still in a way an effort to take care of yourself. I mean really, truly, just stop fighting. Just surrender completely. Just let go. Say fuck it and just lay down and see what happens. Cry if you have to. But stop fighting your circumstances and stop fighting the depression itself. Just surrender.
Give your problems to God, me, your dog even. Hand them all over. Just surrender every last one of them. If they still bother you, that means you have not truly given them up. Surrender more, just keep letting go of more and more until nothing is left. That’s when you’ll find out who you really are.
With your surrender, you allow the grace of the Universe to take over, to guide you, to protect you. Or rather, with surrender, you don’t allow that grace to take over, instead, you realize, deeply, that the grace of the Universe has always had your back.